It's time for a change ...

Greetings, Onenonly0331's Xanga Site/Blog/Thing ...

I have owned this Site/Blog/Thing for quite some time now, and I am ready for a change. As I have grown and realized that "tipng lyk dis iz n0t 'kool' " - I have chosen to create a new Xanga Site/Blog/Thing under something new. I will most likely keep this one, as it brings back old memories(shameful, embarrasing, etc ..). Creating a new Site/Blog/Thing will help me feel loads better and remove a lot of this romance cwrap from my plate. This is exciting - I know. I am practically jumping up and down as I write this. Erm ... Well ... maybe not, but I am cheerful and chipper and that means something. Adios, worn and torn Site/Blog/Thing. I will see whoever happens to be reading this on my new page.

/wave,

Kelly

Currently 21st Century Breakdown By Green Day see related

Well,

it's been forever since I've even logged onto this xanga account.

I have returned! Yay.

So ...

I've been thinking ...

Best Friends?

I honestly wanted to go into trade chanel on WoW and spam "WTB BFF name your price,"

but alas ... I did not. >.<'

I have one ... but I, sadly, feel like we're drifting apart.

And this caused my random writer's block. -_-'

Sure ... I am a complex individual ...

but is it so difficult to find someone(male or female) that I am compatable with?

I never wanted it to be extremely easy, but I never wanted it to be incredibly hard either ...

This is ... frustrating.

-My- life is more complicated than I expected.

Family, Friends, Love, Etc ...

I feel like I have 0 of these.

Not that it is true ... but that is how I feel.

<sad puppy dog eyes>

Meh.

I will attempt to wite a song, at least, then surf the web 'til I can sleep.

And then possibly write(here) again tomorrow.

+Kelly+

Ok ... I'm officially bored. o.o

No one's on, everyone's out with their friends

AND

I'm stuck at home ... alone.

<sigh>

Pathetic much?

Totally.

If anyone happens to read this ... wanna talk? ha.

XD

- Kelly -

bahahahahaha I love B.J.A. so much. ^_^

 < - - - - Cutie right thurr. =)

Ok I'm just going to vent right now and I'll probably stop posting for tonight.

So ... why can't I stay happy for like two days in a row?

I'm happy for one day, then I think alot into it and how happy I am

and the next day something happens that puts me back in "that" mood ...

That depressing, upset, "Why can't I just be happy?" sort of mood.

Is it way too much to ask for?

I can't even find a decent guy for goodness sake.

I mean, I haven't been looking lately cause there's no point

but still. All the good ones are hiding from me.

And what is with these other guys anyway?

Pretending. Faking. Lying.

It's not cool, man!

I'm here, to be real.

I'm gonna be real to people

whether they're gonna be real to me or not.

And guys ... gosh, what is up?

Why do you treat us like crap?

And you're so caught up in the "other"

girls you ignore us girls who are JUST FRIENDS.

I don't care whether you like me like that or not.

If we're friends, it's not nice to just blow me off.

It doesn't matter whether she looks beautiful

or if you just HAVE to talk to her.

Friends before girlfriends, alright?

<sigh> There is a guy though.

He's homeschooled ... like me!

He's sweet. =)

I'm not saying that I like him like that,

'cause I don't really care about that kind of stuff right now.

I just feel like these certain guys, well, the sweet sweet guys

who come up to you without you doing it first,

who talk to you without you doing it first,

who make the cutest comments about you without even thinking about it ...

those guys are really great guys to talk to about things.

To cheer you up and to hang out with.

This guy is awesome.

He commented on my eye make-up yesterday.

He said "Your eye make-up looks really good today." =D

It was so sweet. =)

And he's one of these guys where you just can't help but smile at him whenever you see him.

He can make you laugh real easily.

He can take your mind off of things, and keep you going the rest of the day.

He's just ... wow. =)

And I hate thinking that when I say that stuff about guys it Jinxes it.

Cause it seems like it does ... ALL THE TIME. = /

Sucks ...

but well ... it's not like anyones gonna read this so.

Yeah.

Well, maybe one or two people, but they know me in rl and well ... it's not cool for them to know. =(

Yah know?

I don't even know who I'm talking to, but yep.

I think I'm done venting now.

Adios. o.o